It's everything

The million losses....

He won't see this spring. He won't enjoy watching the plants make their way back from being covered in snow. He won't ask if I want to go for a ride with the top down. He won't be here for summer. We are not planning our vacation that we got to be alone for a week. He won't hear his favorite Bob Dylan songs or here the new Bob Dylan songs. He won't see Wesley get married, Josh graduate from high school, Hannah and Wesley graduate from college. He won't know if Trevor found his way. He won't be here to watch William perform again. All of the years he saved for retirement and he did not get to spend a dime of the money.

And I have to face all of those things without him.