When you tell me what I should be doing, then I feel even more lost and alone. I feel badly enough that Tracy is dead, so please don't make it worse by telling me I'm not doing this right.
I don't even understand what you mean when you say, "You've got to get on with your life." My life is going on, I've been forced to take on many new responsibilities and roles. It may not look the way you think it should. This will take time and I will never be my old self again. So please, just love me as I am today, and know that with your love and support, maybe the joy will slowly return to my life. But I will never forget
and there will always be times that I cry.
